so mad at myself.
for about a month & 1/2 ive been running/jogging & walking alott.
every day i walk my dog once or twice for half an hour.
then in the night i jog for the same time usually once or twice, or sometimes more.
then i go for huge walks with my mom & aunt twice a day on the weekends.
ive been eating way less than i ever have. yet ive gained 15lbs.
when will life start being good to me?
Been running and working out alot lately. Went for 4 walk/jogs two days ago. 3 Yesterday and 2 today, and going For another in a bit.
Yet I’m pretty sure I’ve gained weight.
My body hates me:’(
i wish loosing weight was as easy as loosing followers
I just want to stop trying. Nobody will ever give me a chance. I want to work and travel and help people all over the world. But not one person wants to see me succeed.
I’ve passed out résumés and no one has called me, even though i have great things on my résumés, instead they hire druggies. My school won’t support me for nationals even though I represented them for provincials. I help my family and they don’t even say thank you.
I’m so done with everything. I could help so many people but no one will give me the chance. I could be something great but I don’t get the opportunity because I don’t get chances. I get judged.
I hate my body so much. I wish I could just not have a body. My legs are so gross, they look like turkey legs, my belly is nasty and looks like a beach ball, my face is crap and my double chin has a double chin.
Life is so unfair. I try so fucking hard and I look and feel like shit.
If I give somebody money for gas will they come to my house & run over me repeatedly? Cause that would be great.
I take things to heart way to quick.
Things that shouldn’t bother me do.
It’s like I realized that way down inside, I’ve always been lonely for something. But I don’t know what for. It’s like everybody in the world want’s something. Only they never really know exactly what it is - they just keep finding out what it’s not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty? Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn’t?