i wish loosing weight was as easy as loosing followers

I just want to stop trying. Nobody will ever give me a chance. I want to work and travel and help people all over the world. But not one person wants to see me succeed.
I’ve passed out résumés and no one has called me, even though i have great things on my résumés, instead they hire druggies. My school won’t support me for nationals even though I represented them for provincials. I help my family and they don’t even say thank you.
I’m so done with everything. I could help so many people but no one will give me the chance. I could be something great but I don’t get the opportunity because I don’t get chances. I get judged.

I hate complaining. But I can’t stand being happy one minute and so upset the next.
I wish I could just be happy with the way I look, I try so hard but then the girls in my school start talking about weight and how much weight that they lost. & I’m there so much bigger then them, & not able to loose weight cause I’m some kind of fuck tard.

if you are bored you should read my about me page.
its quite random, & kind of like a decent into hell.
http://neverputthegundown.tumblr.com/deminterests

Everyone wishes to be important.
Thats why followers mean so much to people. because the more you have the more people you feel care. 

I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don’t care that I love them. They don’t care whether or not I live or die. To them I’m just another girl, just another stranger. But to me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left.

I will write eveyones url down in a book. i need to know there is still decent people left on this planet.

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