I’m an atheist. But my mom and my aunt and my whole family are Christian (roman catholic & Pentecostal). They don’t like the fact I don’t believe in religion. So my aunt has given me my poppys bible.
As an open minded person I am going to read it. I know I’m not going to agree with alot of things it may say. But at least I will be able to state my opinion with a clearer mind:)
Thank god I’m an atheist.. (;

I just want to stop trying. Nobody will ever give me a chance. I want to work and travel and help people all over the world. But not one person wants to see me succeed.
I’ve passed out résumés and no one has called me, even though i have great things on my résumés, instead they hire druggies. My school won’t support me for nationals even though I represented them for provincials. I help my family and they don’t even say thank you.
I’m so done with everything. I could help so many people but no one will give me the chance. I could be something great but I don’t get the opportunity because I don’t get chances. I get judged.

Omg. So my aunt said if I help her around the house she’ll take me to Ohio & Florida with her when she visits her family!!!!
Brb crying. I really hope I can go. I’d love to meet some of my American familyc:
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I don’t know why I bother to get up each morning.
All I do is fuck everything up,

Heey marshmallows. if you have ibooks you should download The Deepest Cut. its a great book! i started reading it the other day.
its amazing and is so lovely to read. & its free ^.^

my dog Lilly. the one being i always talk too. i talk to her when we for go walks. when she lays in my bed with me. and whenever it was just the two of us.
now she is very sick. they dont think she will make it, and its tearing my heart in half. she was someone i let my feelings out too. and now that she probably wont be here for long. i dont know what to do.
if shes not here with me. i dont want to be here. i cant deal with the pain of loosing someone i love so much.

shes more than a pet, shes my best friend. an ear that listens

>ive got to practice my Animation for the skills comp in April.
>ive got to get first place so i can go to Vancouver for Nationals.
>if i dont get to go ill cry because its the only thing ive looked forward to the last 4 years.
>imma poor ass motherfucker who can not afford a $4000 dollar software
>my 3d teacher has dropped off the face of the earth. havent seen her since Edmonton,
>she prob feels superior now that she got an award from the prime minister..
>i can barely maintain school, i have gone 3 times since November 20th.
>ive transferred schools and i hate it.
>but i need to go to school to be able to go to Vancouver.
>my family is all fucked up and things are not the same anymore.
>i have no friends. for i have no idea how to keep them,
>people are going around saying i am pregnant. even though thats impossible…. unless im the bloody reincarnated virgin mary having a baby jesus.
>my relatives suck  

Maybe I am the failure my family always thought I’d be.

Most people would like their parents to get back together. But I don’t.
My moms been going through a lot lately and he’s coming over for awhile.
I’m afraid. I hate him so much. I don’t want a relationship with him.
Someone shoot me please.

my mom just doesnt understand, if i think it looks horrible on me i wont wear it. i dont want people to see my fat. even though thats impossible. 99.9% of me is fat.

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